You're far away I know that's true,
I wish that I was there with you...
Send me the pillow that you dream on,
So that I may rest my head upon the same pillow and share your dreams.
Look at the stars....
and you will see that we are not as far apart as we may seem.
Cast your wishes upon the winds,
So that I may hear them and wish for them to come true.
Everything you see, The stars and the moon;
Remember that I can see them too.
Wherever you are, Wherever I am;
Don't forget that we're seeing the exact same stars.
So look up at the sky wherever you are...
and you'll see the distance between us isn't very far.
I just wanted you to know,
that it is you that fills my heart.
Missing you,
More than you will ever know.
Always...
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You were right old friend - because if anything, this time especially - it'd be me and not anyone else..
but I want it, not only because of the obvious beauty
but because there's things that need to be fixed and I need to work for this or risk being forever lost and stuck in the recesses of self conflict.
I can't go on with the cycle and I cannot leave a scar because this time I don't want to just stay the same.
I need to grow. I need to learn.
....and if I hurt myself in the process - if I fall, bleed or if I were to lose myself once more
this time is different.
This time will be worth it.
Because we all need something to die for
to make living so beautiful.
...Happy Birthday to You, Jess..
...Happy Advance Birthday to You, Kimmy...
...May All Your Wishes Come True...
...Enjoy This Special Day of Yours...
...Take Gd Care...
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A Battle You Can't Win
Soldiers put down your weapons, these two hearts have stopped beating.
Raise your white flags up high,
it seems the enemy has been cheating.
Lets just give up this stupid fight,
we have all forgotten who started the war.
These battles have been going on forever
I don't remember what I'm fighting for.
“Sir, you've loved her for so long,
why are you going to let her win?”
"Private, this is a matter of life and love,
Breaking hearts would be considered sin"
Call in the troops we're going home,
there's no way we can win this one.
She fought me off for so long,
it's better we say she has won.
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*The Big Book Of Regret*
Do you regret at all?
Are you a victim of its sting?
When you're in pain and thinking,
Do you ever feel a thing?
When the world spins on its axis,
And you're thinking of the past,
Is your mind just like mine,
In the race yours comes in last?
I've tried to be perfect,
But it's never up to par,
With exactly what you want,
Or with exactly who you are.
I'm tired of adding pages,
To my book of regret,
And your not even helping,
Half the book is you, I'll bet...
I'm trying to tell you,
Just what I feel right now,
But it's just not worth it,
To try to figure out how.
I'm better off without you,
And I know that you agree,
You are just too heartless,
And a bit too brash for me.
Nothing can save me now,
From what I have to do.
I've lost everything.
All thanks to you
Like what you wrote in your blog
Which i happened to stumble upon and look through
So here i am now, writing in my regret book,
And this new entry is you.
Guess it's your decision to regret knowing my friends and i....
It's your choice and there's nothing we could do but feel dissapointed
All i could say now is...Think carefully again....
We've done our best and so much for you.
We've sacrificed so much and put in our efforts just to help you solve all problems you used to face
be it personal or school problems.
All these while we've always been by your side.
Giving all the support you needed.
It's sad
So sad to say that you are just blind to all of our sacrifices....
We seemed to be just a substitute of friends in your life.
When you found other better friends, you simply just kick us aside.
And now you are cowardly running away from us and at the same time
saying that you regret knowing us.
Nevertherless, after all that had happened, we'll still be here if you ever want to talk to any of us ever again.
To you....we may no longer be your friends
But....
To us....you still are.
Good luck to you.
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I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud on my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I have in need of them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find the way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
I've been watching for the stars that used to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the sign
I know that it's out there
There gotta be something from my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some directions
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find the way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I hope that you'll tell me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
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"i'm thankful,
and there isn't a slightest bit of regret
but,
for now,
i'll just indulge in the past
cause it was once beautiful."
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I'm at a point in my life where there's been many changes and I'm still trying very hard adjusting.
And maybe I'm happy but than again maybe I’m not. I don't know.
But changes are somewhat good, I guess. I'm embracing them.
I have been waiting and hoping that what I have been wishing for will come true and it hasn't. Therefore now I stand and wonder if I should carry on waiting or I should simply move on.
I choose to believe that God will bless me with the happiness in life. He know my needs better than I know myself. And cause' He knows that people fall in love, but they choose to stay in love; and He knows that feelings can come and go, but it's the commitment that will keep two people going in the love marathon. It's such sweet liberty, isn't it? Opening my eyes to all these, so much, and it has been a revelation.
Sometimes I just wish for her to fight a little more, put in a little more effort, just to make things work and make me feel genuinely loved. Sometimes I just wish for her to choose me, fight for me, love me. Maybe she had me there only when she wanted and needed me, and now she has decided to give up, forsake me, and break whatever promises we once made in our hearts.
So, the relationship has promises which we made on our own accord and it’s sad that we can't follow through. I don't wanna think I suck at relationships, just cause' of people's doing unto me. But in all ways I can't describe it, it sometimes feels as if I really suck at it, even though I know it's not true.
I Love You, and I only wish for you to be singing it to me. The truth is, you are supposed to sing it to me, maybe not the same words, maybe not the same melody, but still, with all the same heart and emotion I could ever possibly imagine. I wanna be able to write a love story with God and that special someone using my entire lifetime.
And you know, I don't wanna be a bedtime story that flew outta your window, outta your life. I still wanna be the one you promised you'd be true to, the one you sing about. I didn't get into this only to get outta it. You said you love me, and maybe you shouldn't have, when you know not gonna stay here with me. Love is here to stay, and I know i don't have anything but love and a true heart to give to you. And loving me is simply just to stay here with me. What’s the point of loving when you can't stay? What cuts the deepest isn't now that you're gone, but of those things we have ever said and promised, and now, we can't even fulfill any of them.
I used to be concretely firm and strong on my stand; I used to not give up without a fight in what I believe in. I used to not letting chances slip away like this. I won't admit defeat. But sadly, the battle has already ended. For now, I still trust my instincts, but it's you that's draining me dry, the bleaks of grey skies and scary feelings that comes haunting me. I couldn't stay strong forever, or can I? Sometimes it's sad to know that it's your heart that you can't trust. That deceitful heart.
Well, so this is it, back at where I started. And this is where lovers become strangers, and when love couldn't be more real in its very sense. Not being in a relationship is only a technicality, but it doesn't change the fact that
I still love
and miss you,
and........
I still care about you.
Because, really, it's true....
".....So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope....."
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